40 by 40

I am not happy. I'm not miserable or anything but there are so many little changes in my life that could make me really happy. I've decided to take matters into my own hands instead of waiting for everything around me to change. I'm turning 40 this year and I'm VERY excited about that, I don't know why, but I am. I'm aiming to be happy by 40 and if I'm not it's nobody's fault but my own. So... here's a look at what I've got in store:

1. 40 by 40. I'd like to lose 40 pounds this year. That's a shitload of weight I know, and it would bring me to about 180 lbs (quite honestly). I don't need to be skinny. I have no desire at all to see my ribs. I love curvy (and so does Drew), but I want to be able to wear jeans again and be comfortable in them. I want my jawline back, and I'm getting it.

2. Make new friends but keep the old. I have zero friends in Pennsylvania. None. I work from home and don't do anything with people outside of Drew and Kaeleigh. That needs to change. It's a very lonely existence. Sure, I have email with my girls but I need more. I realize that possibly getting a life will seriously cut into my gaming time, but it's a risk I'm willing to take.

3. The hair. Ponytail ponytail ponytail. That's all I ever do. I need a change and 40 may be just the time to do it. Of course I'm not talking about going back to my natural color (at this point I am at about 70% gray), but I need something different.

That's my plan. It's not a New Year's resolution, just a few changed I need to make in my life to make me happy.

Happy New Year. I miss you all. <3 Liz